Home For The Holidays: How To Untangle From The Mess

  Have you stood at the doorway, staring hard at the happy little wreath, under the shadow of the glimmering Christmas lights, hearing the laughter and jingle bells from the other side and hesitated. Taking a moment to breath in the joy now because you know by the end of the festivities you will be…

Exposed

I’m right. I know I’m right and if everyone would just stop and listen to me they would hear how right I am. They would know how brilliantly I’ve laid it all out in my head. The hours I’ve spent mulling and laboring over my right-ness. Now I’m delivering my case, giving a passionate plea…

Two Words That Change Everything

So much of our time is filled with reaching, striving, working, decisions made harder because we want to do it right and not fail – at anything. Why, though? Why would failure or falling down be so bad? Because it would mess up who I think I am, how I define myself and more importantly…

I Am Single: From Defeat to Destiny

I am single. I am single. I am single. I am single. *sigh* Sometimes I think if I say it enough times, the truth of my singlehood may finally sink in. For the past 6 years, I’ve been “renting space” in the land of singleness. I haven’t quite settled in, hung the pictures on my…

On Open Letter to the Single Mom

Dearest Solo, Going solo is a roller coaster, isn’t it? You may find yourself crying behind the bathroom door, shut away so your children won’t see your tears. Sometimes, you sit through jam sessions with your married friends and rejoice you haven’t lost a wink of sleep because you don’t share a bed with a…

Raw: Finding Rest When I’m Running

Raw, unfiltered, unedited and often a bit icky, I am spilling my guts onto the table directly from the pages of my journal. Everyone has them (yucky guts), I just like to take them out, examine them, write about them, show them to God and then stuff them back in – hopefully a little more…

Prayer and the Single Life

Backpacks were set out and organized in preparation for another weekend at Dad’s. This routine was still new to all of us and the stabbing pain of leaving them at the doorstep and driving away never seemed to dissipate. My boys seemed so little in their beds. The anticipation of having to endure this event…

Gods Gift

*I’m so excited to be hosting this incredibly talented guest blogger. I have the pleasure of knowing Tillie through a group I lead at the Community Uplift Partnership called “Women of Worth.” In a recent conversation about what we love to do, Tillie mentioned a collection of poems she’d written. Her writing is real, masterful and…

FAILURE: Ugh!

Nobody likes to fail, to let others down and disappoint. Especially a person like me who’s especially prone to people pleasing and perfectionism. I have this faulty device in me that says, “If I fail, I am not good enough and therefore, undeserving of love.” Not sure exactly where this comes from, but it’s there…

A Chat Over Coffee With My Former Self

You look tired my sweet one. This is the absolute worst moment of your life, and you have no idea what will unfold. You are hidden in the denial in which you are cloaked. Up until 1:30 this morning, you were living a Cinderella life, with a loving, successful husband and two beautiful children. You…

Raw – When Striving Rests

*Authors Note: Sometimes during my quiet time, I read through previous journal entries. I found this prayer I wrote a month ago and it still resonated so deeply again today that I thought to share it with you in it’s true, raw form. No edits, no fluffing, just raw.   Heavenly Father, you set me…

I Used To Think I Was Normal…Until THIS Happened

Are you normal? What makes you think so? Have you ever gone merrily along thinking you are the most normal person you know? You’ve got it all pretty together; if only people like you ruled the world… everything would be perfect. In your inner musings, you witness the utter horror of everyone else’s behavior and…