Home For The Holidays: How To Untangle From The Mess

  Have you stood at the doorway, staring hard at the happy little wreath, under the shadow of the glimmering Christmas lights, hearing the laughter and jingle bells from the other side and hesitated. Taking a moment to breath in the joy now because you know by the end of the festivities you will be…

The Unrelenting Intimacy of Obedience

Have you ever had a time in your life where everything feels so hard?! I don’t mean seasons with storm and tragedy, I just mean everyday life is a tedious uphill battle. Last year, every area of my life was a struggle – like swimming upstream. I had no creativity in my writing, I struggled…

Exposed

I’m right. I know I’m right and if everyone would just stop and listen to me they would hear how right I am. They would know how brilliantly I’ve laid it all out in my head. The hours I’ve spent mulling and laboring over my right-ness. Now I’m delivering my case, giving a passionate plea…

Raw: Finding Rest When I’m Running

Raw, unfiltered, unedited and often a bit icky, I am spilling my guts onto the table directly from the pages of my journal. Everyone has them (yucky guts), I just like to take them out, examine them, write about them, show them to God and then stuff them back in – hopefully a little more…

Prayer and the Single Life

Backpacks were set out and organized in preparation for another weekend at Dad’s. This routine was still new to all of us and the stabbing pain of leaving them at the doorstep and driving away never seemed to dissipate. My boys seemed so little in their beds. The anticipation of having to endure this event…

FAILURE: Ugh!

Nobody likes to fail, to let others down and disappoint. Especially a person like me who’s especially prone to people pleasing and perfectionism. I have this faulty device in me that says, “If I fail, I am not good enough and therefore, undeserving of love.” Not sure exactly where this comes from, but it’s there…

A Chat Over Coffee With My Former Self

You look tired my sweet one. This is the absolute worst moment of your life, and you have no idea what will unfold. You are hidden in the denial in which you are cloaked. Up until 1:30 this morning, you were living a Cinderella life, with a loving, successful husband and two beautiful children. You…

Raw – When Striving Rests

*Authors Note: Sometimes during my quiet time, I read through previous journal entries. I found this prayer I wrote a month ago and it still resonated so deeply again today that I thought to share it with you in it’s true, raw form. No edits, no fluffing, just raw.   Heavenly Father, you set me…

I Used To Think I Was Normal…Until THIS Happened

Are you normal? What makes you think so? Have you ever gone merrily along thinking you are the most normal person you know? You’ve got it all pretty together; if only people like you ruled the world… everything would be perfect. In your inner musings, you witness the utter horror of everyone else’s behavior and…

Ebenezer: On This Place I Will Remember

I have a place I go, once a year, every year. I’ve been coming here for 6 years. Each and every time I step foot into this place, Jesus shows up and meets me here. We cry together, laugh together, grow together, fight battles together and rejoice in each other.  We call this place “Women’s…

What Every Divorced Parent Needs to Know About Starting Over

Two years ago I made a life changing announcement. Two years post-divorce, I announced I would commit to a year of no dating; a sabbatical, if you will. “WHY?” you ask. Why on earth would you take yourself off the market? I guess the best answer I can give is I wasn’t really my best…

No Turning Back

As he turned the corner and out of sight, I knew his first solo journey home from school would be marked in my memory forever. He’s declared his independence. I can never reverse my decision and he can never be little…ever again. There’s no turning back. Isn’t the same true for me? Once I’ve proclaimed…